Synoiz Music Blog

Posted 21st November 2011

Had a sleepless night yesterday, I've been trying to get myself into a more sensible and regimented daily routine lately and my body seems to be rejecting it. Rather than the odd bed at 3am/4am, get up at 7am that I've somehow been managing over the last few months, I've been aiming for bed at 10pm and up at 6am, it's just proving harder than I thought.

I just seem to wake up sometimes, in the peaceful but deathly silence of like 2am and I'm not sure what I should do. Do I close my eyes, push all thoughts out my mind and try to get to sleep for another 30 mins or do I get up, read or work till I feel tired again?

I've always held the belief that whenever I can't sleep that there's a reason, either a worry that needs more thought, an errand that needs to be added to tomorrow's list, or even a lavatory visit or phone that needs plugging in. Lately I can't seem to find out what that "secret concern" is. So I wonder if it's a physical thing and I'm just supposed to be weathering this until my body finally gets used to nights with more than 3 hours sleep at a time.

I suppose I have a fair few worries at the moment, my first ever live performance on Saturday is looming (1st World Problems eh?). While I'm being realistic and know that I've almost got it in hand and either way people should enjoy it, there's still that nagging doubt that Gollum-like studio dwellers like me seem to have with being "up there" and watched by people. There seems to be a few Synoiz fans in the area planning to come along as well as a few of my other friends, it should be a good time once the irrational dread and "everything will go wrong" fear fades away.

Here's hoping we all get a good night's sleep tonight! Syn.

UPDATE: Argh! Turns out I lay awake from 2am to 4am and then my alarm didn't go off so I woke up at 8am. You have to wonder sometimes...